We live in a world that takes everything to extremes.
Success is measured by money and power. Talent is determined by worldwide fame. Physical touch means sexual intimacy.
In earlier years, I was a driven person with over-reaching expectations for myself. I believed my spiritual maturity was validated by my outward appearance, relationship status and/or worldly impact. Something drove me to want what I could never achieve and that something was certainly NOT God. Always pushing myself into a societal mold (even a Christian one) did nothing but increase my anxiety until I was ripe for a mental breakdown.
In the last few years my definition of success has changed. I’m no longer driven by the old rules. I’ve found myself completely in love with a new way.
Unambitious for worldly pursuits.
Post-modern society doesn’t have much use for the slow, soft and gentle. The minimalist. Where “enough” is not hoarding, but a sufficient amount for the day. We are constantly in a rush to be “something” and do “important things” – with no idea what those are.
I find myself enamoured with new things. The quiet of nature. Hours of silence. Driving to work in intercession. Longing for more, but content with what God gives. And even taking joy in the wait.
Success now means obedience and the fruit of the spirit.
Talent is using the gifts He gave me for His glory.
Touch means conveying love and hope and grace in the simplicity of holding someone’s hand.
P.S: This post came from a quiet drive home from work in the midst of a snowfall. Maybe not the best time to let your mind wander, but it is what it is. I admit it: I miss holding hands with a man. Yet, what a delight to know that when that happens in my future I am able to give and submit and love in ways I couldn’t have a few short years ago. To God be the Glory. Only and always. XOXO