I’ve been issued a dare. And I’m not one to back down from a challenge. This personality flaw has gotten me into a lot of trouble throughout the years. Let’s see…. there was a mission trip to Thailand, entering a beauty pageant, kayaking a river in spring run off (almost died) – well, you get what I mean. In the past few years life has beaten me down a bit. Stolen some of my joy, perhaps? I miss the fun, my childlike spirit. I intend to embrace it going forward. And it all starts here – on my blog.
This most recent dare has to do with my writing. Specifically, the authenticity of it. I write in and through my pain – “work it out” through words. Yet, I am far more than just my pain. In fact, I’m only about 5% pain and 95% more. I’m a bit kooky in my daily life. I like numbers and order, but I love stories and art and laughing and joy and so much more than focussing on the icky stuff. It’s there, but maybe, just maybe I’m giving it more value than it deserves?
Yep. Uh huh.
It’s time to let you all in on my deepest heart’s desire’s. A specific thing I believe God put me here for. In this place, in this time, with these gifts.
I believe God wants me to inspire others to live out their own unique purpose.
That thing (or things) God created you for. Before the dawn of creation, He imagined you. He prepared for you. He rooted inside of you “something” – that thing that gets you out of bed in the morning. The purpose which gives you energy to get through your mundane, drab week. The hard truth is, for most of us, we can’t give up our day jobs and pursue our deepest passions. I mean, we can, but in so doing, we may not eat. Or have a home. You get my drift. However, this doesn’t mean that we can’t actively pursue our desires right where we are.
For example. By trade, I’m a bookkeeper. A darn good one, too. I have no desire to be a CPA. Auditing and taxation are not my passions. My gift is taking messes and fixing them. Making them run smoothly and cleanly so that the year-end tax process goes well. I suppose you could say I’m not ambitious because I don’t desire the designation? The higher degrees?
Well. You’d be wrong. I am absolutely committed to being the best mid-level accountant I can be.
Aside from that I have desires.
A desire, as I’ve said above, to motivate and facilitate others in their own calling. A desire to write. A call to learn more about the bible and theology. A desire to create art. To love others better. For me, the list goes on. I suppose you could call me a renaissance girl.
And if I wrap all these desires up and give it one clear definition?
My unique purpose (and yours as well) is to obey. What’s that “thing” that calls out to you? The restlessness in your soul? Maybe it’s the desire you’ve been avoiding because it’s too hard or the process will take too long. The nagging you can’t let go of? Could it be that this is what God put you here for? Perhaps He is simply waiting for you to be obedient? To take the chance that your burning desires are EXACTLY what you were created for?
Something to ponder… xoxo